So, this morning I decided that I wanted to have a hot chocolate from the machine at my work.  I debated with myself and decided I would be good and stay with my diet.  A couple hours after that I changed my mind and decided that I wanted the drink after all.  The machine isn’t working when I go into the kitchen.  The filter needs to be changed.  When I intentionally decide to splurge from my diet, karma sets in and doesn’t let me break it.  If only the times when I don’t intend to break my diet happen this way.  Maybe this is a trend that will continue for the next three months.  I should be good after that =)

Everyone wants to know that they are on the right track.  There is security in that affirmation.

I was reading the paper today that I get when I transfer buses.  I don’t usually read the insertion sections of the paper (Thursday is Fitness, Friday is “In The City”)  This man had left a successful career in the family real estate business to pursue the clergy.  He went broke in his pursuit, but his family supported him and had faith in him.  I never would have read this story, but the quote from the guy to close the story really reflected with me.

“Whatever you feel called to do, if it's important and necessary then it is worth it. Have faith and go after it.”

With so many goals I have pursued in my life, sometimes it’s hard to muster the ambition and drive to go for another.  After reading the story, and finding this quote, I’m ready to take my next step.  I’m going to finish this book I started, go to grad school, become an elementary school teacher and make a difference in a large number of people’s lives.

That’s it.  Case closed.  I’m motivated.  Two and a half years to get my degree.  Totally worth pursuing.

I know my roadtrip was exhausting.  I felt completely drained after the hike through the White Mountain Forest in New Hampshire, but being constantly on the go for 9 days energized me, and that adrenaline rush fueled me for the next day of activities.

Ever since getting home though, and having the opportunity to sit down and rest, without a full agenda of unexplored plans to discover, it’s been tough to get back into what was my normal routine.  Gym is fine, that’s never an issue, but I haven’t gotten any writing done in the last few weeks.  Luckily, I hit a solid stopping point and I haven’t had rushes of ideas flowing into my head in the absence from my manuscript.  It’s still annoying though.

I’m always pursuing one goal and seeing it through, and I don’t enjoy when I get off track.  Nobody does, but I understand that life happens and you have to adapt.

People have called me a machine when it comes to the way I work out, especially when I was running all the time.  I take great pride in that mindset and determined ability to act.  When I can’t live up to that elevated level of focus, I feel like I’m falling short and not living up to expectations.  However, my own expectations for what I should accomplish far exceed what anyone would expect of themselves.  I guess that’s why you don’t see my disability, and why I know this book will get done before school starts in the Fall.

This is why this book will impact so many people, and lead way for An Uncharted Life to do so as a follow-up.